Do you ever wonder what it would be like to be “soulless” or, more of, the societal pretensions towards the term. The depravity of humanity throughout the discourse of history has always fascinated me. This sociopath phenomenon has been a constant throughout human history whether it be through literature, as in Joseph Conrad’s “The Heart of Darkness”, genocide, relationships, or really any microcosm of human existence. Although I keep my outlook of the world through an existential kaleidoscope, the apathetic disclosure of Albert Camus and Henry Miller flow like a raging river of pessimism through every orifice of my brain, my ideals still have some sort of concern or compassion towards my fellow man. But to truly be void of a soul, or, to put it more bluntly, to be free of the mental chains that are morality (in a phenomenal societal sense). I wonder what kind of life one would lead if their reality was freed of such societal constraints. It doesn’t even have to be full of malicious intent like Charles Manson; but to live without care or concern for pretty much anyone or anything. To basically co-exist, for to exist, one would have to have some sort of meaning to society, and through this meaning, one would have to care for society. Would I be happy? Could I be happy? Or would I dive deep into the realms of a mental darkness, clouded by the confines of my soulless judgment, roaming the earth causing harm and destruction to all that come near. I wonder if Stalin was happy? If he smiled on his birthday….

I guess I will never really know; I’m too full of compassion for life and human beings. In many lights its a damn shame, I’d be the world’s greatest extortionist if it weren’t for that. Oh well, I guess I’ll have to rely on my bullshit philosophy that helps me sleep at night when I wonder why exactly I care about my future:

“Love is something that does not exist as a permanent, but can be experienced in sequences, making the search and indulgence of such a phenomenon far more enticing than anything else the world has to offer. I say damn the luxuries of man! They bring me nothing but condescending ideologies and envy.”